Goal Struggles

We must look in the mirror and honestly evaluate why we have failed.

We do it all the time. We see something and say to ourselves, “I wish I could (fill in the blank).” We wish, we want, we desire, but we don’t act. Why? Because acting is the hard part. It’s so fricken easy to sit on our rear ends and WISH for things, but it’s a whole different story when it’s time to apply ourselves and actually WORK for what we want. So how about we stop wishing and wanting and put forth the effort for what we desire.

I have been a jammer since day one of my derby journey. I watched my first bout and fell in love with the gals rocking the stars and decided then that I too would be a jammer. I accomplished that goal, and I’m darn proud of my jamming abilities. However, I let myself get type cast. I let my desire pigeon hole me into being a one trick pony. The way I see it, I am not as valuable an asset as I could be, for any league I am in. What happens when I show up to a new league over flowing with talented jammers? I sit on the bench, that’s what happens. We should ALL strive to be triple threats. We should ALL be willing and able to go pantyless, rock a stripe, or star with ease. We do a disservice to our teammates when we look at our bench coaches in horror when tasked to do something outside of our comfort zone. With this realization, it became apparent that I NEEDED to become a blocker.

We must fail then keep fighting if we are to ever succeed.

I’ve gotten no closer to fulfilling that need than the day I first voiced it. Why? Because I haven’t made a plan and quite frankly because its damn hard to block (I give blockers mad props). We must look in the mirror and honestly evaluate why we have failed. Did we put forth the necessary effort? I can give every excuse in the world for why I suck at blocking. I’m short. I barely have three digits of weight behind my hits. I can go on. However, what it really boils down to is lack of discipline. Blocking is hard, so I avoid it. I don’t like failing, so I avoid it. I’m not good at it, so…I…avoid it. I think we can all see that this vicious cycle of avoiding is not going to get me anywhere. We must fail then keep fighting if we are to ever succeed.

So here, on this public forum, let it be known…I WILL BECOME A BLOCKER. I will stop being embarrassed when I screw up. I will stop giving the excuse, “I’m not a blocker.” And most of all, I will make a plan and actually work for what I want. I’m going to start this journey by signing up for blocker clinics at Beat Me Half Way. As much as it kills me, I’m going to do a lot of failing in front of a lot of people, but it will be worth it.

Lets hear it, what are you all working towards in your derby journey?


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